It’s Monday, and I’ve been in my JNJ 50/55 Bull Put Spread for a week. I can’t tell what upsets me more…the fact that my mind keeps flipping through every insecurity I have about the trade like a slot machine, never quite able to land on anything…or the fact that I am making up interesting reasons to exit this position so early is so blatantly a metaphor for my relationships in the past, it makes me want to melt into the earth.
Note to self…It’s a credit spread. It’s not like you have naked puts on on a 3x ETF or anything.
There are two states my psychology switches back and forth from.
One is the “Adrenaline Junkie”

Adrenaline Junkie
And the other is the “Yeah, But Hmmm No. No But Hmmm Yeah.”

I can tell I’m not in the mindset to trade and I need to walk away from my portfolio when I say things like “Let’s just do it.” and then feel my heart race as I fumble through the order. Or if I play devil’s advocate over every friggin’ detail of the trade and never quite get clear on one single aspect.
The Adrenaline Junkie is not out today. Which is good. He definitely has lost me some money in the past. I’m glad he’s dormant. But the “Hmmm, ummm yeah no, UGH!” Is all up in my face today.
“Well Chantelle, smart money was out on Friday towards the end of the day, Same thing today too, hmm, yeah, well but no you’re in this for the time decay. Possibly a way to leg out at this point? We could aslo… AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”
Until I can pull my senses together I’m going to walk away from my portfolio. I’ll mess around with the guitar a bit and work on my music site. Then take a fresh perspective on things.
All this for a Credit Spread. Really, Chantelle?
On a lighter note Star Trek was AMAZING. I have never seen any of them.
My father told us at an early age he didn’t want us watching Sci-Fi Space movies where there are no black people in the future.
I later found out he just didn’t like those movies. What a smart man though. I mean, no one in the family was bold enough to stand against that argument.
Anway, I felt like both the people who didn’t see the movies before or the TV Series, and the people who were DIE HARD TREKKIES!!!! Walked away satsified. That’s hard to accomplish.
Took a while to get to the war, and the special effects which I wanted to see. The pre-story was a bit much. The rebel without a cause going after a girl and fighting and smart but has a criminal record…KILL ME PLEASE.
But when it got to it! It got to it! Man, it was such a good movie:) Turns out I’m a fan of Spock too! Take THAT DAD! Oh, and there were black people in the movie as well. So YAY!
Trade It Like You Mean it;)
Cheers,
Chantelle